Mats, I am so very sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my mom four years ago and still sometimes the tears still come. But then there are the happy memories, the ones that make me laugh and smile, the ones I share with my children. You will get through this, its what we as humans do, we take care of what must be done. The road ahead wont be easy, but you will perservere. Be strong, and do your mother proud. Honor her memory by being the person she raised you to be. In honor of my mom and the holiday, here is a funny memory I have: My mom put up a christmas tree one year and she also had a new kitten. Not a good combination. Every morning, 3 or 4 mornings in a row, she would wake up and find the tree laying in floor and the kitten playing with decorations. So one day I come home from school and she tells me she "took care of the tree for good". She proceeds to show me how she NAILED THE TREE STAND TO THE FLOOR so the tree wouldnt fall over again. I couldnt believe she put nails in the floor. But mom saw a problem and she fixed it the best she could! She was like that. Do the best with what you have. You will have many memories of your own, and you will embrace them as time goes on. We are all thinking of you and wish you strength and love in this trying time. With condolences,
Debra