Ummgood: Since my pool plaster and fill, I am just now catching up on threads. I feel like I've let down a good friend by being absent. But I hope you know we are all here for you, and most of us have felt the same way you are feeling tonight.
As someone told me about getting older.... it holds true here as well. "Building a pool ain't for sissies!!!" I had to reach out tonight, because I was just having similar thoughts to yours. And my pool is finished! If I had known how hard it was to build a pool and now to survive the first few weeks of the new pool, well, I never would have done it! My only answer is that there is a reason we are building pools - we are meant to and in the long run, we will be happy. Boy, that better be the end result!!!!
I was thrilled this morning when I spent an hour and a half exercising and playing in the pool. I thought, 'This is heaven!' But tonight, I can barely move, and I feel like I will never get better. Maybe you are a little like me in that I run out of energy by the end of a busy day, and with the loss of energy, discouragement and despair slip in far too easily. So, I hope like me, you will wake up feeling better after some rest.
Hats off to you and others who build a pool while working. I don't see how anyone does that! Give yourself credit for all the great things you ARE accomplishing with your pool. It may not feel like it tonight, but you are doing an amazing job. I believe your pool is going to be fabulous! I love the design and ALL the materials you have chosen.
Letting go of expectations of perfection is difficult, especially if you are an engineer or something similar. Things must be exact in that field. So maybe this is your exercise in letting go a little of that. And from what I've read, you HAVE done a lot of letting go. Bravo!!! Give yourself credit. When I'm tired and the old perfectionistic ways creep in, I try (not always successful) to keep my focus on the main goal. For me, fun and family time. And something to fill the void of lost travel dreams. Now my son and I will travel out our back door! When you hear your kids laughing and squealing with joy, and when you and your wife can sit relaxing together and share watching the kids' joy, well.... No grout or time issues will seem important. I promise.
Lean on friends and family. TFP people KNOW what you're going through. Hold on a little bit longer! We're with you!!!
Hugs,
Suz.