You're so sweet. I know how you feel. I used to get snippy more than I want to remember (can't imagine you being snippy, but then again, you ARE allowed as a human and as a mom). But I know exactly how this dad feels. Several times, I almost lost my son 8-10 years ago. I was so grateful for everyday we had that nothing mattered anymore. I noticed yesterday for the first time I felt impatient with him. I kept it in (I think), but it only took one second to remind myself of that rough period, and thankfully all the impatience evaporated. Then I talked to my pool guy today which just reinforced what I remembered yesterday. Be grateful for the good and the bad.
We've shared enough and talked enough that I know you have an amazing heart and are an terrific mom. Remember that always. And again, we are human and imperfect. But things like this help us get back on track, right?! They do for me.
Hugs,
Suz.